"I believe everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they're right, you believe less so you can eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together." -- Marilyn Monroe
So, I went through this phase where I was obsessed with Marilyn Monroe. I'm talking watching documentaries hundreds of times, reading articles, googling random information, following up on conspiracy theories -- obsessed. Well, I've moved on from that time in my life but one thing that has always stuck with me was this quote from her. I remember when I first read it I thought "wow, how well put". Then, I started rereading it line for line and I thought "wow that is literally how I feel about life". From that moment on I took this quote and made it the quote for my life. If anyone were to ask me "what is your favorite quote", this would be it. Why? Because it confirms to me that everything in life is about a transition. We go through these necessary things, which eventually bring us to bigger and better things.
I've been on a spiritual journey for quite some time and I'm not all the way there yet, but as I said, journey. I'm not sure if you all know about angel numbers but basically, they're numbers that you may see repeatedly in certain times of your life, and they are a signal of something. Well, I've been getting the number 55. One day I was reading a daily devotional and came across Isaiah 55. That verse stuck with me for weeks, and I kind of knew why but not really. I wound up writing it down on my notes sticker above my desk and have yet to change it. It resonated with me of course, but one day I woke up feeling troubled. I was troubled about so many things of the past and it was dragging me down again. So, I prayed and meditated, and then I began meditating on that verse for some reason. I repeated it over and over again until something told me to look up the angel number meaning. Y'all, I was shook! One of the first things I read was about how that angel number signifies letting go of all that is no longer serving you; people. places, situations, everything. It says it represents needing to transition out of the past and into a new and brighter phase in life. Of course, at this point, I'm shaken but still not convinced with my hard-headed self. So, I was going through some of my favorite Youtuber's old spiritual videos, Faceovermatter. I stopped on a Motivation Monday video titled Make Room. I've already seen it before, but I thought why not listen again. As I'm listening, she brings up a recent sermon she'd just watched by Pastor Steven Furtick titled Make Room For The New. She said that what she got most out of the message was that you have to transition out of old ways in order to step into your new path. For a better future, we have to let go of old ways, people, places, things, that we can't bring with us into our new transitions. Bringing those things with us will only produce the same bad endings from before. Now, if that wasn't a sign I don't know what is! Instantly that funk I was in was obsolete because I knew this transition I'd been feeling was not for nothing.
I know this isn't my usual content, but I just wanted to be a bit candid on a recent realization. I felt I should share it because heck, one of you reading this might just need it. Learning to let go of what no longer serves me has been one of the biggest blessings I've had lately and for any of you struggling with that, I want you to know it's okay. I've struggled as well and I'm sure I'll continue to, but I know there's a new path ahead of me. The transition that awaits is beautiful.